Our Life Apology

Some of the stuff on this site is embarrassing. A lot of the stories are from a long time ago. I have gone from hardcore pagan to hardcore fundamentalist to a feeble attempt at living the Christian life.

During the process, I have made a lot of mistakes and said some dumb things. Only because of the grace of God has there been a few changes. As David Powlison once said,

God is pleased with shuffling.

Though there are a lot of things that I have done that I don’t believe or practice any longer, I choose to write about my life in “raw form” because I want my children to know it has not been a bed of roses. I can only hang my head in sadness at some of these stories. I am genuinely sorrowful where I did not glorify Christ. I rejoice where I appropriated His grace.

What’s Your Point?

My motive for writing was born out of a desire to know my father. It didn’t happen. That ship sailed before my 20th birthday. Not knowing him motivated me to provide something for our children.

The other motive to write is because of the encouragement I find in King David’s life. He was real.

  • A real failure.
  • A real success.

The entire sordid story is laid out in the Bible for our instruction and edification. My dad did not give me that kind of snapshot of his life, but I can give that gift to my children. I hope you find these stories helpful. They are for you, my beloved children.


A debtor to mercy!

3 thoughts on “Apology

  1. Yo Bro,
    you might be the biggest sinner although I am not certain of that, but I am the chief. You don’t have anything on me. You can Just Call Me Lot.
    Luv the pic’s

  2. I was diagnosed two days after Thanksgiving. I am a born again Christian. I love my Lord, but I am really struggling with the report. I’m trying to stay strong for my husband and children and grandchildren, but wow, it’s difficult. Hearing about Lucia pricked my heart. I will be holding your family in prayer.

  3. Thank you for being so real and honest about the whole truth of your life experience. I hear the pain in your story and perceive it runs quite deep. I’m sorry for how much you’ve suffered and what the enemy of our souls has robbed you of. While YHWH permits suffering – using it as a schoolmaster, if you will, to teach and impart to us such things we otherwise would not have come to see, hear and understand – it is my personal conviction that the way of suffering is not His ultimate plan for those who belong to Him. Time will pass and God in His infinite wisdom will make all things new, restoring to you the years that the locusts have eaten Joel 2:25-32. Christ in you came to set you free and to give you life to the full John 10:10. Ask Him for “the more”. Not more stuff; although, He could bestow upon you material wealth. “The more”, however, is more of Him. Pray colossians 2:3 and have him reveal to you the deeper – “the more” – things of Himself.
    My pray, in addition to what I’ve already shared, is that after He has afflicted you, you will come forth as gold Job 23:10.

    The L-rd bless you and keep. The L-rd make his face to shine upon you, and be gracious to you. The L-rd lift up his countenance upon, and give you peace. – Numbers 6:24-26.


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